I am
an alien
in my
own
home
town
in the
country
of Vikings
and the
midnight sun
lost
in the
crowd
a grey
invisible
shadow
melting
into
the pavement
unnoticed
by the
people
around me
as they
walk
hurriedly
past me
as the
moon
rises
and the
clouds
grow
denser
until
I am
surrounded
by darkness

Blanche - 8. November 2015

adrift in the
sea of souls
a bleak
midwinter’s day
grey and heavy
with tears
aimlessly
floating
around
with the
current
having
given up
the struggle
to reach
ashore
as there
is no safe
ground
the sharks
are circling
around me
keeping their
distance
sensing
my despair
smelling
my surrender
to the
inevitable
the cry
of the seagulls
mourning
what was
never there

Blanche - 13. November 2014

seeing myself
watching
myself from
the outside
standing
in the
shadow
drowning
slowly
gradually
into nothing

Blanche - 19. November 2012

waiting for
the day
to end
waiting for
the pain
to subside
waiting for
the night
to descend
waiting for
the sleep
to come
waiting for
the peace
to arrive
waiting for
the feeling
of calm

Blanche - 12. October 2012

hoping change will come
and there will be light
at the end of the tunnel
instead a cold darkness
like the depth of the ocean
surrounds my whole being
suffocates and drags me under
until I have no breath left
too tired to surface
I feel myself slipping away

Blanche - 3. October 2016